I want to say I’m sorry. I love you. I respect you. And I have learned so much from you. I want to tell you a few things that I have not told you yet. So mom, here goes:
My most precious memory is of you sitting at your vanity getting ready for the day.
I used to sit on your bed and watch you. Though, you may have thought I was just playing with my dolls, I was watching the way you brushed out your long, black, silky hair. The way you would apply your red lipstick, and last, the way you would spray your bottle of Coco Mademoiselle Chanel perfume. The scent would linger in every room you had walked into.
I felt as though I was watching a real-life movie star when you would get ready. I want you to know, that I would sneak into your room, sit at your vanity, and brush out my hair in the same way you did. I would stare at your makeup, open up your lipsticks and pretend to put them on. I would always put them back in the exact spot, so you would never know I was at your vanity.
Thank you for always giving me your empty perfume bottles.
Mom, did you know that I was able to get a pump or two of perfume out of the empty bottles? Maybe you did know. Maybe, you left the few pumps for me. If you did, thank you for that mom.
Mom, I’m sorry for ever doubting you. I want you to know, that just as I watched you at your vanity, I watched you raise all six of us kids. You taught me to be the mother I am today to my three children. Your strength, your grace, your patience, your honesty, and your kindness are the things I am amazed of and the things I find the most valuable in life.
Did you know mom, that sometimes, I really struggle with myself as a mother?
You gave us your everything and I am trying to do the same. I can’t remember you ever struggling in your parenting, but now I know you just never let us know how you struggled; you always overcame. I have learned from your parenting triumphs and mistakes. Mom, this is why I never compare myself to others. You taught me to only look at myself and what I can do to push myself towards greatness.
You gave us the best memories. I am a strong, smart, independent, hardworking, red lipstick wearing woman because of you. You instilled confidence in me from my youngest memories.
Actually mom, you helped us all become the men and woman we are today. You raised three boys and three girls, who are now parents. You have six grandchildren and you are still guiding us as we raise them. We are following in your footsteps.
We thank you mom for your words, actions and unfailing love.